Be strong, go with your heart, and believe in miracles because anything....anything can happen. (Javidando)
Monday, December 21, 2009
The Magnificot
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Top Five People to See on My Wonderful Christmas Break:
1. Chelsea (and Gavin)- best friend since forever
2. Jade- my other best friend since forever
3. My Dad- I often neglect to put the time and effort into this relationship I should
4. Jenny Simpson- As much as I don't want her back in Nashville for the reasons she was here so much, I do miss our Sunday afternoons
5. Ed Camera and family- just good for the soul
Friday, December 18, 2009
Friday, December 11, 2009
And I think we all need that. No one is exempt from the need of community.
There is something within each of us that cries out to others- a deep calling to deep.
Traffic School?
And really it wasn't that bad. Except I was the oldest person in the class.
Anyway, there was this guy in the class who wasn't from Tennessee. He was from Mississippi. And we, being the entire class, started to discuss how he came to be in a Tennessee driving school. Turns out that he is a musician and is consistently playing gigs in Nashville. So, thus the Tennessee ticket and driving school.
Anyway, before we knew it we had convinced him to get his guitar from his car and sing a few songs for us. And he did. And what struck me was that this musician couldn't stop talking about how much he loved music. He just glowed when he talked about his band, his songs, his tours, and was so excited about music that he was thrilled to death to even play in the middle of driving school in some Metro classroom.
And I was jealous of that Mississippi born musician.
Because all I could think about was: Is there anything I am that passionate about?
Is there anything I am so passionate about that I can't shut up about?
Something that its so much a part of me that it simply oozes out of me wherever I am at.?Something that is so consuming in my heart that I'm willing to tell whoever where ever all about it? And be thrilled about such an opportunity?
I think I've misplaced my passion. Now if you'll excuse me, I think I'll go find it.
I'm not going to let some Mississipian have all the fun.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Sometimes, I just need to be reminded of that. Sometimes I need to be reminded that if my faith is based upon evidence, then its not faith at all. Sometimes I feel as if I know nothing about faith or trust at all.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Thank you, Aristotle
fairy tales
As children, we grow up on fairy tales. We were told them before bed, we watched Disney make magical movies about them, and we acted them out as we played pretend as children.
For children, fairy tales are wonderfully magical stories full of hope and perfect happy endings. Stories full of princesses, princes, wicked queens who never win, fairy godmothers, elves and dwarfs.
However, most people do not know that fairy tales began as stories that were told to adults full of gruesome and cruel darkness. These stories were not intended for children in the least. Actually, most fairy tales came to be as stories women told as their way of rebelling against the constraints placed upon them by the restrictive societies they live in.
How is that something with a beginning and elements so dark within them have becomes something that children dream about and celebrate?
We treat fairy tales now as something to be achieved and as the perfect story to try and obtain, but in reality they were never meant for this purpose. To strive to try and achieve a fairy tale life is to try and strive to achieve something that doesn’t exist and was never intended to exist.
Fairy tales began as a way for the oppressed to speak out about what they suffered without actually doing so. These stories were their way of highlighting the dark truth of what they suffered. However, throughout the centuries we have squeezed the darkness out of these tales and replaced them with trivial light. And these stories, void of their original intent, are what we tell are children. And subsequently, what all children end up trying to achieve.
Now I love Disney’s Cinderella as much as the next person, but I’ve come to realize that life will never work like this particular version of a fairy tale. That things don’t always work out, that fairy godmothers don’t always prevail, and that sometimes there is no perfect solution or happy ending.
I’m not saying that life is devoid of happiness or magical moments, but I’m saying that setting our children up to strive for a perfect “fairy tale” ending that actually never existed is unrealistic and unfair.
Life is hard. Life is messy. Life is occasional dark and sometimes cruel. And we should not shield ourselves from that truth. We should recognize and acknowledge it. We should learn how to survive those times, so that we can come out triumphant on the other side.
I guess what I’m saying is that we should all realize that life is not a fairy tale in the way we know it. That there will be darkness and hardship and sometimes no perfect happy ending.
But I’m also trying to say that this doesn’t mean life isn’t wonderful, magical, or full of wonderful moments.
I think what makes life so amazing is that constant contrast of light and dark. That despite the hard times, we are able to still recognize what good there is. That despite the hurt, we are still able to feel hope and joy. That even when we are broken, we know that someday there will be wholeness again. I think if we are just honest enough with ourselves to stop expecting a Disney fairy tale life, we might end up more satisfied with the tale we are actually living in.
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Today one of the questions I worked on was centered around high school and friendships. It asked "who did you hang out with in high school? who did you spend the most time with? were they good influences or bad influences? what did you learn?"
Those are some really great questions and it was kind of fun to go back and think about high school. As much as we all complain about how bad high school was, it also was wonderful and fun.
But it started me thinking about the high schoolers I work with. So much of what I do with my youth group and how I interact with them comes from what I learned from spending time with my youth group in high school. When I dream about what I want our youth group to look like and what I want these kids to experience when they come together, I find that I want them to experience what I had. I want them to experience the friendship, the support, the pranks, the laughter, the love, the learning. Sure we didn't all get along all the time, but when push came to shove we did.
Sometimes I forget how much my past really influences my present. And how my experiences shade what I want for others to experience. I don't think this is a bad thing. Obviously, what we've lived is what we try to recreate for others- especially if it was a wonderful experience.
But I do think that I need to try and remember that it can't always be the same. And won't always be the same. And that my teenagers will form a group identity of their own. And I hope that in ten years they can look back and feel the same joy at their memories as I do at mine.
Monday, November 30, 2009
I have a home- several in fact. Not just places where I can come to at the end of the day and rest, but places full of love and people who care about me. I have a home in the town where I work, and I have home where my family is. Both are incredibly special and I am so thankful for each of their unique places in my life.
I have a family- and such a special family. I think my family means so much to me because for the most part, the big part of my family didn't have to be my family. My step family have gone from complete strangers to true family. And its so special that these people, most of all my step father, love me. Not because they have to, but because they choose to.
I have a job I love- granted I complain about it, but overall its such a wonderful thing I get to do each and every day. Wake up and participate in people's lives. Spend time with kids and teenagers. I get to plan worship and make music and get paid to do so. Its not a bad gig.
I have a good life. I can see, I can hear, I can feel. I'm incredibly blessed and don't stop often enough to remember that. So I wanted to do that now.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Top Five Christmas Movies of All Time
1. Its a Wonderful Life
2. Love Actually
3. Holiday Inn
4. Scrooged
5. Home Alone
Love this time of the year!
Friday, November 27, 2009
“Stop right there, that’s exactly where I lost it. See that line, I never should have crossed it.”- Relient K
How many of us really realize exactly where our lives went out of control? Or maybe not even out of control, but just off track? Or maybe even not off track… Life might be right on track and you still might feel like you’ve lost it. Or unsatisfied with life. Or that you have missed the point of it all. Life doesn’t have to awful to be not what you want.
Life can be everything that anyone could ever want it to be, but still not what YOU want it to be. However, we all get caught up in the idea that there is a way our life should look and if it looks that way, we should be satisfied. (OR there is a way you life shouldn’t look and as long as your life doesn’t look like that, then you are ok).
I guess what I’m trying to say is that you can wake up, have no major worries, be able to sit in the sunshine enjoying that first cup of morning coffee, and still be slightly dissatisfied. There is more to life than a job. There is more to life than a house. There is more to life than pretty days, even if they are worry free.
Life is more than having it all together and having all the foundational stuff in place. I can have a job that is stable and that loves me and that I rock at, but if when I go home at night I sit in an empty house if I hate my life at that point- then that’s a problem. I am more than my job, my degrees, and my chosen career path. I’d rather be the culmination of the time spent with people I love, dinners shared in a house of laughter, and having someone to talk to at the end of the day.
Yes I want to be good at my job. Yes I want to matter and make a difference with the work I do. But I’d much rather be a good person, a good friend, a good daughter or sister. I’d much rather make a difference by sharing my life with people I love than the people I’m paid to know (that sounds meaner than I mean it).
I love my job. I love how I get to work, where I work , the people I work with. But at the end of the day, I’d rather love my life.
“The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table for me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. “
I have always had issues with The 23rd Psalm. I hate to admit it, but it has always slightly annoyed me. I never understood why people used to quote it as comforting and reassuring, when it always left me feel slightly uneasy.
However, I have recently stumbled across what I think might be the problem I have with the 23rd Psalm. You see in the 23rd Psalm the majority of the action verbs are attributed to the Lord and not to me. The LORD- is, makes, leads, restores, leads, with, comfort, prepare, anoints. It is the Lords who works and the Lord who is the one who is making things happen. The only verbs attributed to me are “shall not want, walk, dwell.” None of these verbs are things that take much effort on my part.
You see the problem I have with this Psalm is that it tells me that I am dependent upon God and what God will do. There is little I can do to make things happen in this Psalm. I am dependent upon God for comfort, for goodness, for mercy, and for the still waters. I cannot produce these on my own. The problem with this Psalm is that it highlights how little that I am capable of. It shows me how utterly dependent I am upon God for everything. It reminds me that in spite of all of my intellect, experience, friends, or family, that at the end of the day I am have to rely on God alone to provide and protect. That for someone who tries so hard to be independent and self-reliant, I am actually quite dependent.
This psalm makes me uneasy because it forces me to admit I can’t do this on my own. I can’t be my own supply. I can’t provide for myself. This psalm makes me uneasy because it reminds me that we were created to be dependent on a higher power. That we are like sheep, dependent upon a Shepherd who loves and leads; and that this psalm annoys me because of how amazingly reassuring it is to be told that I don’t have to be independent, self-reliant, or self-sustaining. This Psalm allows me to admit that despite all my ok-ness, that I still need someone to lead, provide, and comfort. And that is how its suppose to be.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Top Five
So this week: top five things I love about where I live now:
1. having a cat- I finally got a pet of my own. And its fun. And she purrs. And is cuddley. And follows me around- I like the adoration part.
2. Getting goodnight hugs- LOVE IT!
3. When you cook dinner, there are people there to eat it instead of eating leftovers for days on end.
4. Having coffee made when you wake up in the morning- the mom leaves for work at 6a, about the time when I wake up and there is always coffee ready. I'm going to be spoiled.
5. Cell phone reception! Gone are the days of sitting in the Food Lion parking lot at all hours of the night so I can finish a conversation!
So what started out as a really stressful thing, has turned into something quite lovely. As usual.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
We are going over basic ideas of faith right now in our youth group. We've talked about sin, forgiveness, love, Christ, and this week we are supposed to be talking about grace. But I'm having trouble capturing this "grace" in a lesson.
Sure, I can pull out the old 3 types of grace- prevenient, sanctifying, and justifying. I can quote Scripture- "it is by grace we have been saved". But how do you really explain to people what grace does? What it is? How it works?
I don't know. I'm going to have to figure it out by Sunday afternoon though. I'm starting with the big three- the big three things that I know about grace.
Grace:
1. is costly- grace costs someone something. If you are the receiver of grace, the person who extended the grace paid a price. If you are the giver of grace, it will cost you. There is always a price with grace. Something that someone loses in order to offer grace up.
2. is undeserved- grace is nothing that we can earn or be worthy of. Grace is not something we can live up to or become deserving of. That is one of the distinct characteristics of grace, it is entirely out of our ability to earn.
3. produces change- you can not receive grace and remain the same. Being the receiver (or the bearer) of grace marks you. Produces a change. You can't experience something that deep and that special and remain the same person you were. Grace always produces a reaction- for every action (grace given/received), there is an equal or opposite reaction (what the person on the other end does with the experience). Its simple physics.
The "easiest" (although its not easy at all) way to learn about grace is to experience it. You can hear about, be taught lessons around it, sing songs about, and even read about it- but until you experience it- you don't really get whats so incredible about it.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
An extra hour or two
Top Five Things I Might Do with an Extra Hour in the Day:
1. TAKE A NAP
2. Watch this week's Grey's Anatomy
3. Go ride my bike
4. Nothing- I would sit and do absolutely nothing
5. Call my sisters
Thursday, November 12, 2009
I heard the sermon (twice actually) but I heard it in the way that you hear the news as you are getting ready in the morning. You are aware that someone is talking, but you aren't necessarily digesting any of the information.
But later in this week, I've gone back to it. Re-read the scripture. Tried to remember what was said in the sermon. And in my life right now (although the poverty thing I can totally relate to) I don't think that this story is about money for me.
Right now, I'm drained. I'm tired. Worn out. Burnt out. I have very little left to give emotionally. And since I'm not perfect, I'm willing to admit that I've felt a slight bit resentful when people have needed emotional support lately. I can usually squash those sneaky little selfish thoughts down, but still the moments they are there I do feel them.
But maybe, like the widow, when I give out of my poverty- emotional or financial- that means more. Maybe it means so much more when I give support, encouragement, comfort, or whatever when I am empty and dry myself, it makes what I give mean so much more.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
To make this Monday matter: DONATE BOOKS!
-61% of low-income families have no books in their homes.
-43% of adults with the lowest levels of literacy live in poverty.
-55% of children have an increased interest in reading when given books at an early age.
Easy ways to solve this problem:
1. Donate books you will never read again.
2. Donate books that you have had for over 2 years and will never read.
3. Call your school, library, foster organization to see if they need books.
Imagine what it would be like if you couldn't read.
Monday, November 9, 2009
Top Five
My talent- as much as I love it- is kind of embarrassing. See the thing is, my talent is reading. Not like, yay I can read, but like I read at abnormally fast speeds and maintain/analyze vast quantities of information. Its a geek talent. But I will admit, it helped in school.
Anyway, since reading is my thing, I devour books. I'm not even joking- I read all the time and everything I can get my hands on. Its not uncommon in our family that when we buy a book, I automatically get dibs because I will finish it faster than anyone else.
And I'm not bragging, I'm just stating facts.
ANYWHO- that brings us to yesterday's top five and why its so important to me.
You see reading has always been an escape for me. A stress relief. A place where I can unwind and enjoy someone else's story. And while I read various and lots of books, there are some that I keep going back to. They are like a favorite sweatshirt or a comfort food.
Top Five Books I Read Year after Year:
1. East of Eden- Steinbeck
2. Anne of Green Gables- Montgomery
3. Hamlet- Shakespeare
4. Let Your Life Speak- Palmer
5. The Things They Carried- O'Brien
Friday, November 6, 2009
burn baby burn
It took years to build up the office. We literally work years on making it what we needed it to be. Situating it so that it we could work within it as best as we could. The basic frame of the office never changed, but the insides changed over and over again. And within a few terrible hours, it was all gone. And there was nothing I could do. Except, that when it was all over, I could help pick up the pieces. Rebuild what once was and helped make it better than before.
Monday, November 2, 2009
So to catch us up: here are four (three for the ones I missed in Oct and then one for this particular Monday) things to do that will help make your Monday matter more:
1. Protect yourself with Internet Safety- Research shows that the emotional impact of internet identity theft has been parallel with that of victims of a violent crime. Keep yourself from becoming one of the 5,479 that are victimized this way daily.
2. Change Your Lightbulbs- By changing over to a compact flourescnet lightbulb you can save $30 over the life of the bulb and they will last up to 10x longer than your regular bulbs. If every home replaced 5 frequently used lights bulbs with CFL bulbs, close to $8 billion a year in energy costs could be saved.
3. Register to Vote- 71 million eligible voters didn't vote in the 2004 presidential election. That's a shame. Especially considering how hard some people fought for everyone to earn the right to vote and gain a say in how our country is run. Let's change this!
4. PARTY with a purpose- $747 is the average amount spent annually on holiday gifts. Every week there are: 79,623 births, 42, 884 weddings, and 5, 812,037 birthdays! This year if everyone gave up their birthday gifts, more than $3million could be donated to a worthy cause or a charity. So next time you party, party for a cause bigger than yourself!
Sunday, November 1, 2009
But more often than not, when we pick up the piece of sky and examine it, it turns out to be not as bad as expected.
Sometimes when we are given a piece of news, we react. We immediately assume worse case scenario and freak out.
Then we hear the rest of the story and realize that things are actually going to be ok after all.
So today's top five topic:
Top Five Events that started as bad news and actually turned into good things:
1. My parents divorce- if they had never split, i'd never have gotten the wonderfully amazing complex diverse and large family I have now.
2. When I was told I was getting a little sister- I was so mad. I had been the baby for 7 years. I didn't want anyone else in our family- best thing ever to happen.
3. When a very close friend dropped out of a school program we were doing together- I felt abandoned. Turned out to be the push I needed to grow close with other people.
4. When I got into my first huge and scary fight adult fight with my dad- paved the way for us to be able to talk about the hard things.
5. When I was told last night that the place I currently live is no longer available to me, and I kinda became homeless. In the past 24 hours so many amazing doors have opened and I have seen God's faithfulness in a new and huge way.
Sometimes what starts off as a mess can turn into the most beautiful thing in the world.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
I don't think success appears to us in the major ways. In the big things. I don't think success shows up in the major milestones. I think that we get true glimmerings of success in the little things. And I have learned this the hard way.
I have waited to see success in my job, in my life in the big things. In a certain number of people attending my programs. In consistency of work. In grades. In number of dates. In number of friends. In ability to be independent, in handling problems myself. In the amount of responsibility I am trusted with.
But recently, I've figured out this is never how we see success. I think success always is sort of disguised.
I've seen success disguised as:
-a 730 am phone call from a kid who missed the bus and had no way else to get to school.
-a 3 hour converstaion about life with a senior
- being the first person sought when a middle schooler got her heart broken
-having my office flooded at 330 every afternoon when school lets out
- being able to show grace to 2 kids who got in serious trouble and thought I would kick them out of the youth group
-finally getting one of the kids to speak more than 3 syllables to me after 4 years here
-fixing my own sink when it broke
-changing my own tire
-going to a party alone and being comfortable in that
-making the right decision even if it isn't what I want to do
-finally feeling great in my own skin and loving my own life.
Success is not found on the mountain tops, in big paychecks, or with having absolute power.
Success is knowing that you are doing your best.
And maybe I shouldn't call it success. Cause sometimes that makes it sound cheaper than it really is. Because these triumphs in my life are so much more than success. They are signs that I am on the right path. They are affirmations that I am pouring myself into the right things. They are the things that keep me putting one foot in front of the other instead of running in the opposite direction.
I think I would have felt better along time ago if I had expanded my idea of what "success" looked like.
And I'm willing to wager that success for me is not going to look like success for anyone else.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Music is a huge part of my life. So this week- if my life had a sound track, these songs would be on there:
1. The Story- Brandi Carlisle
2. Long Way Around- Dixie Chicks
3. Hold the Light- Caedmon's Call
4. My Sweet Charade- Stephen Kellog and the Sixers
5. Shower the People- James Taylor
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Let me back up. You see, for awhile now, I have been considering that it might be time for me to end this chapter in my life and start the next. I've been considering what it would mean for me to leave my job and the town I now live in. I have been praying and searching for an answer to this situation and not quite finding peace.
A part of me knows that I have learned what I can in this situation and that I have grown so much. And that part seriously considered it time to move on. To find the next challenge, the next adventure. But there was another part of me, not as strong, but just strong enough to keep me hesitating. To keep me praying for confidence and assurance in this decision. For God to let me know when I was ready to move on.
But I never considered that it wasn't about me. But you see, when you pray, God answers. That's the insane part. You always get your answer- you may not like it- but you get it.
A situation has emerged in my life (not exactly in my life, but in the people's lives whom I love dearly in my current situation and therefore my life is wrapped up in this situation) and this situation was like a fist to the face. It was a clear answer that it was not time for me to move on. That until this situation resolves, I have to stay where I'm not. That I may be ready to move on, but other people need me to stay.
I never considered that maybe my life, and my call, was not about me. That is was more about others. That my life- all my experiences, emotions, training, friendship, relationships, heartaches- that all of that have formed who I am so that I am perfectly prepared to stand by, for, and in front of these loved ones of mine during this time. That until there is resolution, I can use the talent I've been given to comfort, to encourage, to protect, to defend, to simply walk through this with them. And to be honest, I know in my heart that is why I never found perfect peace in leaving before.
Its like the trees in autumn. The tree itself can actually be biologically ready to change colors weeks before they do. For its not just about the tree and the trees readiness. Its about the environment. Its about the temperature of the air, the moisture level. The change from green to red is not just about the tree- but a communal process between the tree, the environment, and the weather.
I may be ready to change, but its not just about me. Its also about those whose life is connected to mine. So eventually change will happen. And the time will come. But at least now I know, its not right now.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
1. Michelle- a young mother facing breast cancer with incredible strength and courage (and a great sense of humour)
2. Travis- a high school boy who is a little bit lost in life but is searching and has an incredible heart
3. my boss- we've recently crossed that line where we are more friends than co-workers, he in the middle of such a terrible/wonderful time
4. Allison- baby sister, at first semester of college, dealing with figuring out this new life and finding closure on the old
5. Martin- that he find a job (and that its not 10,000 miles away)
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Top Five
So today's top five: 5 things that I've done right this week:
1. Ignored paperwork and spent two hours talking to a high school senior about her college fears.
2. Cleaned my mom's house so she didn't have to.
3. Called my grandmother and talked for awhile.
4. Planned the Advent season music
5. Made myself available for a friend who needed a listening ear
Quit playing game with my heart...
Yesterday I saw a church sign and it just made me angry. Probably more angry than it should, but it really hit a nerve for me.
The sign read: "Soul-Winning Conference, date, time, etc..."
The thing that made me mad: "soul- WINNING".
I'm sorry, but how exactly does somebody win a soul? And whose souls are we trying to win? Is the point to try to win our souls? Or to try and win other peoples? And if a soul can be won, does that mean we can lose souls as well? And who keeps the score? And what is the deciding factor in whether a soul has been won? And who the heck ever decided that once a soul was won then that soul was magically transformed into a Christian soul?
And how is this a conference? Do you herd a bunch of "lost" souls into a room and have some kind of "Price is Right" game show? Or is this a place you come where they teach you how to win souls? Kind of like football camp for Christians? Or maybe more like the NFL draft?
I'm being a little mean and judgemental, and I'm apologize. I don't really mean to be. But the premise behind the idea that we can "win" souls is just appalling to me. Souls are not game pieces. Souls are not something to be acquired or won like some monopoly real estate. And if they can, we are in no means capable of winning something as priceless as a soul. And to be truthful, I really don't believe that souls can be lost. How do you loose a soul? How do you misplace the thing that makes you who you are?
I believe that souls are what makes humans human. Our soul is the essence within us that allows us to feel, breathe, believe, and be who we are. Our soul is the part of us that believes in something more and where we love from. Souls are the part of us that experience love. I believe that people's hearts and souls are very closely related. I don't think souls were meant to be won. I think souls were meant to be loved. To be cared for. To be nurtured. To be accepted. To be appreciated. I believe souls were meant loved into truth, not convinced into religion.
I'm a Christian. I believe in Jesus. But I don't think He ever told me to go win souls. I don't think He even ever mentioned to go win people. I don't ever think He intended this to become some kind of game. I just remember Him telling me to love people. And that's how they would know Him. Through His love in us.
And this makes me believe that loving another person's soul until the point they recognize that it is in fact God's love and not mine, is not a quick process like the idea of "winning" suggests. In fact, I think that helping people believe and discover the Love that is already in their soul is a slow and gradual process. Granted there are events that can act as a catalyst and speed the process up. But mostly, loving souls takes time.
I hope I never get to the point where my focus is seeing how many souls I can win or convince or recruit. I hope I always remember that the point is to see how many souls I can love. And hopefully from that, souls will know that they are loved by Love itself.
Monday, October 5, 2009
perspectiveness
Every Monday Matters- help the Hungry
Facts:
- the 2nd largest expense for families is food.
-35.1 million Americans have limited access to enough food dur to lack of money or other resources.
-30% of families are foreced to choose between buying food and paying for medical care and medicine.
-96 billion pounds of food are wasted each year.
This is a problem. Today choose to be part of the solution.
What to do:
-Locate organizations near you that support the hungry. Find out what those organizations need and help provide it.
-Donate your time and volunteer at any food pantry, a local soup kitchen, and a homeless shelter.
-Go through your pantry and gather canned and dried food to donate.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Top Five
Things to do on a lazy fall Saturday:
1. Take a meandering walk
2. Sit in the sun and read
3. Call the people you've been meaning to
4. Rent movies and curl up on the couch and watch them
5. Make the first stew of the season....
Fall is wonderful!
Monday, September 28, 2009
Pocketful of sunshine
There are approximately 2.1 million active and reserve men and women in the US military with hundreds of thousands of troops deployed indefinitely to remote parts of the world. The most requested item by military men and women is a letter. Grab a pen, paper, and envelope and send the letter. Simple things like this can encourage and support total strangers.
If you need help getting connected with somone to write to: visit anysoldier.com.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Top Five
***shout out to Joey Willis for this amazing idea***
1. Sheldon- from the Big Bang Theory
2. Krammer- from Seinfield
3. Jack Bristow- Alias
4. Chandler- from Friends
5. Hodgens- from Bones
Think of all the interesting conversation!
Monday, September 21, 2009
Because Mondays still matter...
1. Prepare for an emergency- Diasters are never planned, but happen anyway. Readiness will reduce fear, anxiety, and potential loss. Prepare today for any kind of tomorrow.
2. Eat healthy- French fries are the most widely eaten vegetables (PROBLEM!). 400,000 people die per year from complications due to laziness and poor eating habits. Just start making changes...and take it one day at a time.
3. Get rid of junk mail- 500 pieces of mail per person per year...what a waste junk mail is. By decreasing your junk mail, you'll save trees, save waste, decrease pollution, save time (the average person spends 8 months in their lives opening up junk mail), and save the postmen time and effort!!!!
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Top Five
1. ice cream trucks
2. my Dad when he talks like Daffy Duck- made me laugh when I was five, still has the same effect
3. The ringtone I have set for my youth group (Peter Pans "I Won't Grow Up)
4. wind chimes
5. the sound of typing on a keyboard
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Strange? I kind of thought it was.
But I've been tossing so many ideas surronding the idea of sin in my head that if I don't write them out I might drown in them.
For so long, I've tried to atone for my past mistakes. I've tried to be kind, compassionate, loving, sweet. I've tried to make things as easy for everyone as I can. I've tried to be as much as I could be, hoping that it would make up for the times when I missed the boat completely.
Granted, I never really thought about it in that light. I never realized what exactly I was doing. I never realized that when I always took the backseat, or offered to buy dinner, or do the dishes- that what I was really trying to do was even the score. Right all the wrong I've brought into the universe.
I knew- theorectically and logically- that I was forgiven. I have been told and told countless others that when God forgives, He redeems. He makes it better than we were before. But I honestly have to admit that I was never really living into that truth in my life.
So I've been grappling with sin. And here's where I've landed.
Sin is not a list of rules that I've broken. Sin is not a list of specific actions I've done to wrong my brother. Sin is not a score card.
Sin is when I live outside the boundaries God has placed for me to keep me safe. Sin is when I act in ways that is disrespecting of the love that God has given me. Sin is when I forget who I am and Whose I am.
And because sin is so much more than broken rules, there is no way I can ever make it right. There is no way I can repay the debt. There is no way that I can live like I deserve what I already have received.
That's the beauty of grace. When we've wandered out past the barriers God has placed around us for our security, grace is what comes out to get us. Grace is what ushers us back in- telling us that we have been missed. Grace is what makes it seem like we have never wandered at all.
Sin isn't about breaking rules. Sin is about actions that break God's heart. Sin is about living in a way that is in contrast to the beauty God has planned for us.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Since I've been away on vacay- I thought we'd do a vacation top 5 this week...
Top Five Things I Love About Being Away-
1. Turning my cell phone off- and just not caring who calls or texts
2. Being able to take time each day just to think
3. Not having a set schedule
4. SLEEEEEEEEP
5. Good food
Simple things, but so very good things.
beauty and terror
Alaska is one of the most beautiful places I’ve ever seen. It has landscapes that literally leave me breathless. From the majesty of a soaring eagle or the power displayed when the glaciers calve, this is a place that is full of adventure and wonder. Its overwhelming and awesome. Everything about it encompasses you and you give in to the sheer delight of this wilderness.
As beautiful as this place it, it can be sly and deceptive. The same glaciers that enthrall could very well kill. The mountains that paint the horizon with points of inspiration can very well be someone’s path to destruction. It’s a beautiful place, but its also a terrible place.
How is it that something so beautiful can be so destructive? That living amidst the wonder and majesty can come at such high a price? That living in a place that oozes with life and zest could very well be the catalyst for your untimely death?
Things of such beauty and power are always a gamble. You never know whether it will end up in exhilaration or terror. You never know when you choose to enter and interact with a place like this whether you will come out triumphant or broken. It could be oh so good, but it could also go so wrong.
Love is the Alaska of the heart. You never know when you choose to love people whether it will end up beautiful or terrible. You never know whether you will come out the other end whole or in half. You never know whether love will be a live giving event or a life taking event. Love is a gamble. It can be majestic as the mountains, as calm as the coast line, and as enduring as the horizon. However, it could also be terrible as the brutal Alaskan winters or as cruel as one of natures creatures in the middle of winter.
It can leave you feeling amazed and enthralled, or it can leave you feeling beaten and alone.
It it, and always will be, both beautiful and terrible. Love is a gamble. Love is a wilderness. But you always come out the other side changed. And wiser. Which just might be the point of it all anyway.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Saturday Morning Madness...
The problem of Jesus is defined as this- Jesus declared Himself as the way, the truth, and the life, and some people have trouble accepting that this is the only way to "salvation."
I'm sure that once I give the theology and logic behind this problem a bit more thought, I will have more intelligent things to say.
But for now- this is what I have.
The things that create problems and cause us to stop and struggle, usually these are the things worth struggling with and figuring out.
That the important thing about the problem of Jesus is that it gets us thinking, reflecting, and searching out the truth.
That even if its a problem for you to claim Jesus as the only way, at least you are admitting that there is a way to find.
Its important to not get so wrapped up in finding the answers as in gaining the experience and wisdom that comes with living your way into the answers.
Long story short: enjoy the problems. They create the interesting tension in life.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Every Monay Matters
Pay attention to the alerts on the freeway.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
The End of an Era
That's weird in and of itself.
Top Five
Things I Miss About Being a Teenager:
1. Going to school- and getting to see your friends all day every day.
2. Football games on Friday nights (ok I still get to go to these but its a little different)
3. Summer vacation!!!!!
4. Passing notes in the hallway between classes
5. Somebody else cooked dinner (at least in our household)
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
Every Monday Matters #2- Turn Off the Box
How often do we get invested in TV shows instead of in people's lives?
I'm not saying all TV is bad. In fact its a guilty pleasure of mine.
Sunday a Day Late
Sunday's Top Five- 5 Things I Love About My Job (since yesterday I wanted to quit...)
1. getting to share in people's lives in an unique way
2. looking out at the congregation on Sunday morning and seeing people who are genuinely happy to be there
3. spending time with young people as they figure out how to live out their faith in their own way
4. watching young people grow in God and discover who He has created them to be
5. Hugs- you get alot of hugs in my job. I love it.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Every Monday Matters
1. Stop and think- make the list of what matters most to you.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Top Five
Today's category: Top 5 Things- that I forget to be thankful for
1. Home- the security and identity that comes from having a happyone
2. Hugs- I forget how much physical affection really encourages me
3. Sight- I watched the sun rise this morning and realized how awful it would be to not be able to visually experience it
4. Adults who shepherded me as a teenager- and still continue to do so
5. Change- often I fight it, but I know it pushes me to grow.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Notice Me!
But what I found was a white napkin taped to the door of the refrigerator with a note on it written in blue marker. The note said:
"I bet no one even notices me."
At first I smiled, because I'm pretty sure I know the person behind the note.
But I kept thinking about it. It was like a one of those headaches that aren't strong enough to really hurt, but are just present enough to nag you.
I decided its because people are all the doing things just to see if someone notices. And I wonder, how many people actually notice?
Recently, our town has grieved its way through a string of teenage suicides. I think these were last ditch, tragic efforts of kids to get people to notice what they were going through.
But we need to notice people before things get that tragic.
People tape figurative notes to themselves every day. In can be in the shape of words spoken, things gone unspoken, through cloths worn, piercings gotten, hair color, tattoes.
Are we noticing? Do we see the people right in front of our faces?
Are we noticing the people who desperately need us to notice them?
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Sanctuary
And maybe we aren't finding it, because we are looking for our preconceived notions of what it should be. Instead of the forms it actually appears in.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Unspoken
What about all the other people in the story? Its struck me recently that maybe as important as what is said in stories in the Bible (or actually just in life maybe) is what goes unsaid. Whose voice you don't hear from. Whose perspective you aren't able to see. Because they have a story too.
I was reading the story of David and Bathsheba recently and I noticed that there is very little about Bathsheba in the story. Besides the fact she was beautiful and loved by David, we find out very little about her. Did she love David? Did she love Uriah? Did her heart break at Uriah's death? Was she relieved at Uriah's death? Did she go willingly to David? Did part of her know that it was wrong? Was she torn in two over this decision?
I know the Bible is a tool God uses to teach us about Himself. That the words within it hold power and sway over our lives. But sometimes I wonder, if the words that aren't in there possible just as powerful.
I'm going to start seeking out what goes unspoken. Intentionally searching for the voices unheard, the perspecitives unshared.
Perhaps there's just as much truth and power in what goes unspoken as there is in what is said loud and clear.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Let it go, Jeremiah. Who cares where they get their drink of water? I mean, what's the big deal? So the people have changed water sources? Only since Jeremiah is a prophet, we should assume he is speaking metaphorically here. And the metaphor is: the Israelites have forgotten their eternal and unending God and turned toward mortal and temporal worship.